What made you stop being an addict?

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

These Diabetes Drugs Are Finding New Life as an Antiaging Hack - WSJ

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Read that again ☝️

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Review | In its third season, ‘The Gilded Age’ is as staid and sudsy as ever - The Washington Post

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Outer Worlds 2 Is Xbox's First $80 Video Game - Kotaku

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

This was February 2019.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Why do my friends always say "yeah, we've heard this before" when I talk about something I'm passionate about?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Bruce Willis’ Family Share Heartbreaking Health Update on ‘Die Hard’ Star - TV Insider

Just keep trying

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Patti LuPone stuns Broadway as The Apologizer - AV Club

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I did it in my administrator's office.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

5 foods to consume empty stomach to stabilize blood sugar levels naturally - Times of India

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Inside J.J. Spaun's Arizona Home as He Claims Surprising U.S. Open Win - Realtor.com

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Ethereum Governance Tokens Spike as SEC Backs ‘Innovation Exemption’ for DeFi Projects - Decrypt

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

Let's Weigh The Pros And Cons Of Inviting Larry David To Your Wedding - OutKick

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Why do people believe that global warming is man made?

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Random: Mario Kart World Player 'Breaks' The Game, Takes Flight Over Mario Circuit - Nintendo Life

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

2025 Chiefs Training Camp Presented by Mosaic Life Care - Kansas City Chiefs

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

And I can also talk to them now.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

How many trans people are lawful gun owners?

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.